VIVI ♥ Simple Life

I had lots of fun yesterday.

Actually, I've been stuck for a couple of days
I was not happy last week coz I got nothing to do every single day
I couldn't fine the way out, and neither the way to improve myself.
It seemed that I couldn't do anything, just like a waster...
I hate that feeling.

I tried to get something to do, and enjoy this casual life...
However, it was so boring, meaningless, and horrible....

I was so depressed, upset, and unhappy.
I just wanted to go back to Taiwan, even it would make me like a loser.
maybe I just wanna escape the life I didn't like no matter I was in Taiwan or Australia or somewhere...
But Where is the perfect place I should be?

I didn't wanna talk to anyboday, see anybody or interact with anybody...
I just wanted to be alone, just me.....
quietly, peacefully, and lonely.......


After talking to Miki, I really felt better,but I still need more time to figure it out...
I cried alone.

And finally, I had some arguements with Hans that night.
He was angry at me, and I was angry and upset as well.
I cried, I was painful....
I didn't know what excatly I want.
But things was going better, I thought.


I know that's my problem, I keep everyone out of my world
just because I have nothing to show my abilities.


I know I gotta turn around and think clearly.
I know I gotta open my heart to go with this world.
I know I gotta calm down.
I know I gotta think positive.
I know ....
I know ...

So I'll work on it.
I'm trying coz only I can make everything better.


Hope everhthing will be all right in the future coz life still goes one, isn't it?